Transformed

At this point in my life

I'm waiting on God to send me my wife

My good thing, my queen

The lady of whom I often dream

For many years I've dated time and time again

Playing the games most men play, falling deeper into sin

But now, I've grown and I've learned 

After studying women for so long, finally a degree of knowledge I've earned 

And so, I can now honestly say

That the games, I no longer wish to play

For I am now mature

Meaning that, I no longer wish to endure

All the childish things I used to

A few years ago, that was all fine and good

I didn't mind robbing the hood

taking hearts and breaking them

sweet talking my way into minds then raping them

without feeling the slightest little bit of guilt

Just like a bee, I buzzed my way to the center of one beautiful flower 

to the next

then once I smelled it's sweet nectar 

I'd mark it with the abbreviation ex 

and move on mesmerizing others with my hex

Then one night, I fell asleep

and I had a dream

That all the things I was doing to others

Was happening to me

And I woke up crying

Tears of hurt, guilt, and shame

began rolling down my eyes as I called out his name

Jesus!! Jesus please!! 

If you hear me

Deliver me

Forgive me

Restore me

Heal me and reveal me

To the real me

The me that you created me to be

The respectful me

The courageous me

The fun, loving, caring, brave, strong, and silly  me

The me that knows how to accept love and give love back. 

Romans 12:2 "Do not conform yourself to the standards of this world, but let God transform you inwardly by a complete change of your mind. Then you will be able to know the will of GOD. What is good and what is pleasing to Him and is perfect."

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