Loves Pain

 

After about a minute of fingers rubbing in circles followed by a few blinks, finally my eyes open

The ray of sun that peaks through an unbalanced blind covering a window, tells me it’s a new day – or is it?

I look around and I ponder…..hmmm (so many questions running through my mind)

Where am I and how did I get here?

Who are these people and where are my clothes?

Why can’t I remember and why do I feel funny?

The fretfulness running through my mind has me panic-stricken

Lying in a bed of sin, I slowly begin to move, trying to find my way around this unfamiliar territory

Finally I reach a place of solitude

As I look in the mirror that hangs over the vanity of a blood-stained washroom

Tears relentlessly begin to fall

What have I done?

Is my life really that bad for me to be so defiant?

Maybe I’m better off dead?

With a heavy heart, full of guilt, I begin to reach for my suicidal weapon of choice

When suddenly, I felt throbs at my feet

I looked down, picked up my phone, and I cried out

“Mommy, please help”

“I don’t know where I am, who I’m with, or how did I get here”

“I’m locked in a restroom naked and afraid”

Voices call out to me by another name as poundings create a terrifying noise at the door

I sit in the corner eyes closed with my hands covering my ears, praying asking God to protect me

Suddenly, the noise ceased and the door slowly opened

Trembling with fear, I built up enough courage to open my eyes and face my doom

To my surprise, I saw my savior

Hurt and disappointed by my life decisions, but always to my rescue

I see the one person who loves me unlike any other

My rock, my strength, my joy, my mother

                                                                                                                                                              

Written by: The MeSSenger